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Ugh.

You know, when you’re in high school, it’s almost expected of everyone to be two-faced, stuck up, and back stabbers. Most people realize their friends aren’t really their friends. I’m lucky enough to have a handful of friends that never truly turned on me. But still, there were way more than enough people who made fun of me, who put me down, and just straight up pissed me off to no end.

You’d think, by leaving high school you leave the drama too. Not the case. Life likes to suck for as long as it can. I thought college was going to be different. It was a smaller, closer environment (I have 16 people graduating in my major with me in May). As artists, we all identify with each other, the cliques aren’t like the ones in high school.

Nope. Two-faced people are EVERYWHERE. I honestly thought I had some real, decent friends up here. People I would keep in touch with. People who I could trust and would be friends with for years. No, just no. I can’t get close to anyone, they all let me down (minus a few people, they know who they are).

I’m ready for it to be May. I want to get out of here. I want to be away from these bitches who think they’re so great and I’m so… well, who knows what they think of me? They hardly even talk to me anymore. Thanks roomies, love you too.

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Well, this blows.

I’ve been thinking a lot, about my financial situation, school, where I’m going to live, and what I want to do with the rest of my life.

My financial situation:

IT SUCKS. I have less than a hundred bucks in the bank and I have to pay off a ticket that I shouldn’t have to be paying for in the first place (long story short: my GPS took me some completely different way from Wilmington to school that it never did before and I ended up having to go through a toll and I had no cash on me). So now I have to pay thirty bucks for going through the EZ-Pass. Plus the thirty bucks I needed to pay to register for a domain name for my web class and the fact that I can’t get to work because of my car… Good bye eating.

School:

I’m starting to hate it here. My roomies (with the exception of one) gotta have sticks shoved up their asses or something because lately, they’re treating me the way we treated this girl that none of us really liked last year. They’re excluding me from EVERYTHING. Whenever I make a joke the two of them just look at me like I’m an idiot or respond so seriously. They keep getting snippy with me and talk down to me sometimes. If I ask a question they just ignore me, or try to avoid answering. It’s been putting me in a funk and really only one of my roomies seems to notice and actually cares enough to ask if I’m ok. (Not that I can really tell her the other two are pissing me off since she’s really close to one of them). Not to mention, due to my financial status, I can’t afford to be buying the paper, mat boards, spray mount and portfolio cases I need this semester, let alone pay off my loans and shit to even go here!

Where I’m going to live:

I decided a long time ago that Delaware was the place for me, and it still is. But I just can’t afford to even live there, not by myself. And there is NO ONE who is serious about rooming together. The two people who keep talking to me about living together keep changing their mind about where they wanna live and who with. I need stability in the person who tells me they’re going to get an apartment with me. Not to mention I don’t even have the money to pay my portion of the rent to begin with. So, I’ve decided that I’m going to discuss moving to Florida with my mom. At least down there, I can live rent free till I get back on my feet. Or, if Florida doesn’t work out, I’ll try to move in with my dad, he’d really like that.

What I’m going to do with the rest of my life:

I still want to be in graphic design, no doubt about that. My plan now is to apply for as many jobs as possible in whatever area I end up in. But, I think eventually I’d like to end up being a high school graphic design teacher.

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